Recently, I’ve come to realize something. For those of you who do not know, Hannah will be getting surgery soon, and honestly to say that I’m nervous would be an understatement. It’s the first thing I think about in the morning and the last thing on my mind before I go to sleep.

I’ve been a little hard on myself about this because what evidence is this of my faith? If I can’t rest on His promises, what’s the point of claiming my belief? Speaking to my husband, I quickly realized that as a believer the presence of faith does not negate the possibility of doubt or fear presenting themselves. After all, we are here. We are human. We are in the present where it can all quickly become very overwhelming. The issue lies in the reality that faith and fear cannot co-exist. So while I acknowledge the present fear, I ask God to help my unbelief, and I keep walking in faith. No matter what. I believe that everything He has already done is evidence enough to prove who He will forever be. Even now. So I have no reason to fear. Right?

THE THING IS… this is easier said than done. At least for me.

So what do I do? What do we do when we’re caught between these conflicting perspectives? Do we take the road that provokes change but triggers our fears or do we simply just stay in the place we have grown to know where our faith is played safe?

I’ve learned that faith can be easier to execute when we know the byproduct. In other words, sure I can walk in faith when everything I see or hear encourages my faith to be produced. But truly, genuine faith is produced when it contradicts everything we see and/or hear because it is there that I let go. I let go of the false narrative that I can manipulate this outcome. I let go of false pretenses that who I am can make or break circumstances. I let go and I let God.

So, putting all crippling fear behind me, I’m choosing to let God do what he does best.

Join me?